When I was small

Comment

Recorded from Nikolaj Lixachev in 1986.

Translation

(29-1) When we were small we were twelve children. (29-2) We lived in poverty. (29-3) When we lived, the rich people from another house tortured my mother, forcing her to make fish nets and shoes. (29-4) They said: "We will give you one plate or mug of food for the work you have done, if you finish the net and the shoes and give them to us." (29-5) One Sunday we said to our mother: "Mother, let's go. (29-6) Let's go to the rich people. (29-7) Perhaps they will give us some milk, food, fish or meat." (29-8) That's what happened. (29-9) So we went. (29-10) We went, but no! (29-11) We sat almost two hours talking and chatting with them. (29-12) No! They only gave us tea without anything else, one mug. (29-13) That's what happened. (29-14) So we left. (29-15) Our father lay in bed ill with rheumatism in his legs and arms. (29-16) Who would hunt for us? (29-17) We did not have a person who could hunt. (29-18) That's what happened. (29-19) Then our mother said: "What can you do? (29-20) If nothing, nothing. There is nothing." (29-21) She brought a damp stick, a chock of wood. (29-22) She took the bark from it. (29-23) She took the bark from it. (29-24) She took the top of the white bark from it. (29-25) She took off that bark. There is tree with bark that makes its trunk white. (29-26) She scraped it with a knife. (29-27) She sat like that and scraped it. (29-28) When she scraped it, the bark became like that. (29-29) When you turn it, it becomes like lard. (29-30) She cut it. (29-31) She cut it and made gruel out of it. (29-32) She made gruel. (29-33) What sort of gruel could it be? (29-34) It was simply water. (29-35) At that terrible time she fed it to us. (29-36) There was nothing then. (29-37) No bread, no butter, no tea, there was nothing. (29-38) Only water. (29-39) That's how it was. (29-40) The children cried, but she said: "Don't cry". (29-41) She sat us down on the bench, took the smallest child and sat down herself. (29-42) She said: "Children, don't cry!" (29-43) She said: "Now we go to the rich people, but don't envy them." (29-44) She said: "The war will come. (29-45) When the war finishes, we will have a good life. (29-46) If you don't die before then. (29-47) Until then have patience. (29-48) Don't cry. We will have a very good life. (29-49) If Germany wins, life will be bad. If the Soviet power wins, then we will have a good life. (29-50) We will eat butter and flour, we will wear nice clothes, there will be plenty of different clothes. (29-51) Very many. (29-52) There will be all sorts of things. (29-53) There will also be shoes to wear. (29-54) There will be everything. (29-55) So be patient and don't cry. (29-56) There won't be any rich people then. (29-57) Everybody will be the same. (29-58) There won't be any rich people, there won't be any poor people, everybody will be similar." (29-59) That's how it was. (29-60) She said: "Don't cry." (29-61) Then she said: "Who will feed us? (29-62) Whether you cry or not, anyway there is nothing. (29-63) If there is nothing, where will you see something? Where will you find something? (29-64) You better get asleep here, hush!" (29-65) That's how it was.